Its been a long while since I've last updated this blog!
(That no one bothers to read besides myself!)
Nothing much has happened yet but I'll just give y'all a slight update on my life!
After 2 months, this week is my final week working for arvato before I go on with my poly life!
And I got my macbook for poly, and I don't like it. So MANY problems.
In addition, I'm not excited about starting my poly life at all.
I am Giant's gig was awesome and I got invited to their private bar after their gig!
There are all freaking nice guys, heres me and the singer together
Just came back from a chalet with my Montfort and St Gabs bros and it was what I needed!
A chance to escape from the fast paced, every changing world. It was exactly what I needed because I've been feeling like a fucking piece of shit for the past month before this.
A lot can happen in three years.. Change the only constant thing in life right?
Well, I hate change.
My best friends from three years ago, we used to be so tight
we didn't have to talk very often but we could understand each other very well.
Two years ago, those two moved on to their tertiary education and I stayed on
in secondary school to do my O levels. Nothing much change yet then.. but now?
For one of them, it feels that we have drifted apart so badly that now whenever
I talk to her, or rather, IF somehow I get to talk to her, it feels like I'm talking to
just some random friend I knew from back then.
For another one, it feels as if I'm not worthy enough to talk to her. Like as if her friends
are just so much more better then me now. Its still as easy to talk to her, but she constantly
drops me down.
And being me, I over think a bit too much. What's going on guys?
In addition, my brothers from secondary school too. If feels as though everyone has huge ass
egos. Everyone just much rather hang with their friends outside of school and not hang with each other or just giving himself too much self-constraint. Theres 6 of us and everyone has their own issues. One of us think that he is like the coolest amongst all, thinking everyone must accommodate to his liking, another one with huge ass attitude, one with like so pessimism and the list goes on and on. And what I hate is, no one can agree with each other and picking fights with each other. It wasn't like this back in the past. And I got a feeling, our friendship now.. Is just living on borrowed time.
I hate change, what happened to the time when we all just didn't gave a fuck and did anything and everything together? No matter what we did, where we did it, who we did it with, when we did it or how we did it. We just just did it together. Everyone is just so getting caught up with
the trends, the peer pressure from outside friends and their personal egos. I hate change so fucking much. I miss my friends, the ones from the past.
But after saying all that, maybe nothing has really changed. Maybe the one who has changed is me? Maybe everything's main reason was actually my doing. Maybe everyone just starting to treat each other different because they were afraid that I would just judge them.
Maybe because I am this guy that was the main influence of everyone to change.
If this is really true.. I'm sorry guys. Maybe my existence is just a hindrance to the way you live your life. Maybe I should just slowly just fade away from everyone.
Please guys, I hope you all read this and realise how I much hate how everyone is changing.
Hello there! Sorry I haven't been updating! I've been busy!
But then again, I doubt anyone reads this now.
Anyway, a lot has happened in the past few months so let me just get to it!
I spent most of dec just slacking at home.. Not finding a job..
Yea..
I spent three weeks of January working before i quite cause I couldn't
stand how screwed up the bosses are!
I got my O level results back and I'm super satisfied with my results! :D
At first, we all lined up to get our results.. Then the principal shows the
statistics of the results and seems as if our school had not done very well
for both the NA and Express students.
Soon, we were each given our individual results..
When I got my results I raged cause my DnT had gotten an A2. LOL!
A while later, I looked at my other results and I jumped around my classmates
then i just laid on the floor! I had gotten 14 points!
Here are the individual results for my subjects:
Eng : B4
Maths : B3
Comb Humans : B3
Comb Science : A2
DnT : A2
Total up, I got 14 points!
Which was my target since the start of this year!
I was super dissapointed in my DnT cause I wanted an A1 terribly!
But thankfully, through some impossible mean.. MY HUMANS GOT B3 OMGWHUT
I totally expected a C6! I was also shocked to have an A2 for my sciences!
Eng and Maths wasn't very surprising though!
Then I applied for JAE and had gotten Audio Visual Technology at Ngee Ann!
Which was what I wanted since the start of sec4!
The sms i got that morning that notified of my results kinda spoiled my mood somehow
cause I kept thinking the limited future prospects I will have with my diploma but
I decided to just work hard and pursue something else in uni! :D
Thank god AVT has an Engineering background!
Well, what else is new...
Oh, RED CAMP IN NOVEMBER WAS AWESOME!!
I met a lot of great people there and have a a lot of fun! No one should pass up a chance
to attend Red Camp!
I'm going to start working again tomorrow at some unknown area of singapore
working for Microsoft as a Admin assistant! 8 bucks per hour should be good enough!
I do hope there won't be stress while I'm doing the job! Pleaseeeee~
In addition, I do hope all my buddies from secondary and primary school do stick together
and keep in contact.. I'm terribly afraid that we'll all go our separate paths and that our friendship would be just something that I can only relive in my memories.
I'll forever have 2A3, 3A3, 4A3, 5A2, Charlie 2007 and NCDCC in my heart. Without this people i doubt my life wouldn't be interesting to live through.
I don't want it to be like my relationship now with my supposed best friend.
I feel as though she had moved on to poly and changed drastically.
I really cannot name what part of her had changed but she had changed and
every time I talk to her, it just doesn't feel like its the same person I knew back then.
She even blocked me from her blog now. Go figure. What can I do?
Every time I try to talk to her she constantly shuns me away with cold replies.
But really? What can I do? What in the world could I possibly do?
Its her choice, as far as I'm concerned, she doesn't feel like a person
I could talk to about anything and someone I could go to to talk about any problems I have.
Or it could possibly be me. I could have been the one who changed. Oh well, everyone knows
I'm not that kind who will try very hard to revive something that's already way dead.
I got to know this girl.. She's a malay, and she's the first malay girl I've fallen for
since 2009. She's very sweet, very kind, fun to be with, very easy going, cute and we have
a lot of common interests. I do hope I can take it far with her. We'll just have to wait and see
now won't we?
Oh well, I'll update as soon as I can.
I will blog soon!
How do I begin this post?
How about....
Tomorrows my 3rd last paper for the O levels! My thoughts on each papers..
For Eng P1/2 I just hope i made sense!
For Maths P1/2 I just hope moderation doesn't screw me over
Sci (Chem) was awesomeeeeee!
Sci (Physics) wasn't too bad!
Comb (Geog) was a bitch i swear! ):
Comb (SS) wasn't too bad but damn, Bonding didn't come out.
I'm glad Sri Lanka came out though!
DnT was just freaking great!
Anyway, my prelims 2 results were
Eng : C5
Maths : C6
Comb Sci : C6
Comb Humans :B4
DnT : A1
Totaly R4 is 23. I NEED TO DO WAY BETTER FOR MY O LEVELS!
Totally shocked at my humans results.. Oh well.
And i still can't fail any subjects!
Wish me luck for my Science MCQ and CLB papers for the next few days!
And after wednesday.. FREEDOM!
After O levels, I hope I could find another great place to work at
like last year at NAS. I love working there!
I've have been thinking about my NCDCC life during the past few days..
Gosh, How I miss those days of pumping, being commanded and commanding.
Really really miss all my seniors, squadmates, juniors.. I meant all my friends
who were in that CCA during my time there. Sometimes, I wish I had
a time machine just to relive those times and to correct my mistakes I've made.
But then again, if it weren't for mistakes, I wouldn't be who I am right now.
Oh well..
Anyway, till next time!
Ciao!
Its been awhile since i last posted.
Just an update, Prelim ones are over.
My results are :
Eng - C5
Maths - E8
Comb Sci (Phy :50/100, Chem 58/100)- C6
Comb Humans (SS 30/50, Geog 2/50) - C6
Dnt - A1
Class position 2/31, Level 8/odd 100.
L1R4 : 26
Overall, i met my target of just passing everything.
And I even got an A1! :D
But i'm terribly dissapointed at my maths. I thought i could have passed.
I should learn to check my answers. 16 careless mistakes in paper one is no joke.
And i need to get rid of this complacency and procrastination i have.
I really want to do well, my parents need to be proud of this fat boy blogging here.
Prelim 2 season and I started of with a bad note.
I screwed up my whole science practical.
But I think i'll do well for Eng, SS and Geog!
I need to buck the fuck up. O levels are just 50 odd days away.
I don't want to waste a year here and go back to ITE.
I don't want to lose out to my cousins. I need to get at least 10 to
get on par with their results. Its disgraceful enough to be in NA with a bunch
of cousins in Express or special streams.
Just to let you know.
My aim for O levels are :
Eng : A1
Maths : A1
Comb Sci : B3
Comb Humans : B3
DnT : A1
L1R4 : 9
I want to get this results, i cant afford to fail a subject.
If not I'll be in ITE.
I'm kinda happy with my class. Constantly encouraging each other,
or making each other feel better. Espacially DnT boys.
I'll definitely miss this class the most amongst the other classes i've been in.
I'm glad to have Claire to talk to no matter what. Thank god for her if not i'll be in a great deal of stress right now.
I'm also grateful for having the bunch of friends I hang out with,
sometimes I wonder what would I be if i didnt know them. Love you guys. (:
I miss my NCDCC Charlie squad too. We all need to meet up ASAP.
Ps, I'm turning 17 this saturday. I want to see who will really remember.
But fuck it, wishes are good enough. (:
Hari Raya is this coming tuesday, I've been fasting everyday since 1st. (:
O levels orals are on wednesday, need to ace it. I need my A1.
Recently, old problems is back to haunt me.
Sometimes i wonder, is it possible for me to be with her.
I highly doubt it.
Okay, till next time.
Dzul
Its been months since i last stepped foot on HTA grounds.
Today was my junior's SNCO POC and i went down to congratulate them.
I am very proud of them. And they were under my command two years ago and were
just blur 13 year old kids. Now they've grown and will be going through the same
things that happened to be two years back.
Seeing the spirit, the friendship and teamwork just made me think back to
what happened two years ago. When it was my SNCO course and my own POC
The people there has changed, there were a handful whom i knew.
Back then, I knew almost everyone. Such a change.
Its been two years, I lost contact with many I knew from SNCO back then.
During the bus ride from woodlands till hougang. I started reminiscing
my experiences. I wish I had a chance to relive what happened two years ago.
I want to relive 2009. The best year of my NCDCC life.
I miss everyone. I want to have a chance, to just live through everything once again.
Sadly, life goes on and I have no say over time.
Just an update on my school life.
I've completed my DnT artifact last week. I hope it will score enough for me to
get an A1. I really need an A1 for my DNT as its the subject i have hopes of having
an A1.
I need to buck up on my humanities. If not its ITE for me.
No way i'm wasting one year of my life to go to ITE.
Dzul, you need to buck the fuck up. You'd better not dissapoint everyone
who has hopes of you.
Tomorrows the last day of the first school term.
I personally think that if i continue behaving and slacking
like this term, I will definitely regret it.
Where's my self-discipline?
Oh well, I really hope I can change.
I really hope my friends too.
I really don't want to see any of us cry in the exam hall with bad results.
But sec five life also hasn't been the best towards us either.
While we're still stuck in secondary school, majority of our friends
has moved on to either ITE or Poly carrying on with another phase
of their education.
But we're still stuck, still stuck.
I still think about you. That sucks.
I should stop thinking and dreaming about you.
You're not worth my time, not anymore.
Please go away.
TODAY WAS IRON MAIDEN LIVE IN SINGAPORE!
SO after school, i rushed home, changed, and met Ian!
Then we went off to stadium to meet Isaac and Sean.
We grabbed a quick bite, and we went to line up!
4.30 pm, the queue was already long!
We were confused on where to go and maybe told us to stay in the line.
So we did. The line was outdoors.
And guess what, it RAINED! And we were all wet to the skin!
We were all allowed into shelter.
And everyone almost was arguing with the organizing crew.
It was like a damn riot!
They were chanting stuff like "Maiden, Maiden"
then they chanted "THE MANANGEMENT SUCKS!"
We were then told that was the PEN A line.
When they brought us to the PEN B line, it was so peaceful.
IF WE KNEW, WE WOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN WET!
After that, me and Isaac sneaked out to piss.
When we came back, the woman refused to let us back in! LIKE WTF!
We then met Isaac's 20 year old uncle and his friend.
We talked about music and his friend is watching Iron Maiden for the second time!
They knew Coheed and agreed that it rocks! WHOO!
Then she allowed us to go in from the way we entered, but not allowed to join back Sean and Ian. So we waited at the back. And i met Maddy! The girl from the gig last saturday! We chatted then we went in. Me and Isaac ran in to find those two.
After we found them, we saw Jon Er, who then joined us.
First, Rise to Remain came up. They were NICE!
They played Bridges Will Burn, Purify, Nothing Left and a few other more.(Y)
But there was this fucking bunch of kids that were conplaining, saying that its too noisy, their legs were tired and stuff like that. When we were chanting "Maiden" he said we were stupid cause Iron Maiden has not come out yet.
I want to fucking hit those kids so hard!
Then Maiden came on. It was pure heaven.
Singing our hearts out,jumping up and down. (Y)
Some people in Pen A were
sitting. WTF RIGHT?!
When the talisman came on, some guys went
"I don't know this song, lets start a moshpit"
AND I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL OF THEM!
But i later joined in the pit and it was fucking awesome!
But some idiot scolded me, blamed me for starting everything. Fucking idiot.
I went into the pit thrice, then i was out of energy.
After everything, we took pictures and went home.
And i am so freaking tired right now.
See ya!
Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! Maiden! End of 2010.
Beginning of 2011.
Its been a rough year, but its one of the best years in my life!
I got to know whom my real friends are, those that wille always there, no matter what.
Lastly, i learnt that hard way that relationships can't be forced on.
Anyway, what went today was..
I met up with Jon and we went to great world to get his heelies. (Mind the spelling, LOL)
HOT ANG MOHS MAN
Then we met Shahrul at dhoby and we went down to serangoon.
We had our dinner or lunch at Mad jacks.
And in front of me and Jon, there is this girl with tight black top and white bra. WHOO!
We kept joking about her like mad. Horny talks! Ahaha!
Shahrul also had a good view too! (;
Then we met up with the rest, and went down to kovan superbowl.
Ain, Josh and Khair went to play pool.
While Syafiq, Randy, Jon, Shahrul and myself just slacked around the superbowl..
Hardcore dancing at the para para arcade game. DAMN FUNNY MAN!
We went down to heartland mall and thats why Daryl came by.
We were eating in KFC, then Faridor and Thomas joined in.
We went down to Serangoon Gardens after that.
And its was so fucking AWESOME!
We were all chanting and hardcore dancing to techno and acoustic songs!
After that, we just hanged and we seperated.
Sadly, not all of my montfort bros could join us.
A lot of them had probelms and other plans which was fine.
But sometimes they just can't stay steady for last minute plans.
I hope it stops.
Anyway, Its a new year! Happy new year douchebags! Ahaha!
Btw, my results for N levels are..
English - A2
Maths - A2
Comb. Sci - B3
Comb. Humans - B3
DnT - A1
Total - 11 points!
HELL YEA SEC 5!
Tomorrow is results day.
I'm scared as hell.
I really hope i'll do well.
Its been a long time since i last posted!
Heres a update on whats happening.
Been working for close to two months at National Archives.
Awesome place to work in.
Awesome people, funny ass jokes.
Not to mention the place itself is in city hall.
Get pay can go town straight away. :D
Once I get my pay, i'm gonna get myself either a jansport or
a manhattan portage bag. :D A SMEXY RED ONE!
Something like that but in red. :D
But their price ranges are in the hundreds. ):
But sadly, I'm going to stop working soon.
2 more weeks.
I'm going to miss those people there. ):
Not to forget that the N level results will be released soon.
I really hope i can make it to sec 5.
I don't know what i'd do if i don't.
Pray for me people. :d
Oh, i miss NCDCC a hell lot.
Espacially my batch of people. Be it AFIs, Cadets, officers.
And whoever. I miss you all damn badly.
Till next time~
P.s. I know its kinda messy. :\
